I will just start by saying this: I feel terrible for not uploading very frequently. In all honesty it's because of both laziness and time usage spent on schoolwork. However, I am going to France in March, so I will probably upload a few photos from that. Hopefully my camera will not get lost or destroyed.
These days I am just really tired. I am tired not only physically, but I am also tired of hearing about and seeing the shitty things humans do. There's Ferguson, there's people who hate anyone who isn't heterosexual and/or heteromantic, there's transphobia, there's racism, there's slut-shaming, there's fat-shaming, there's skinny-shaming, there's sexism, there's misogyny, there's terrorism, there's school, there's rape and molestation and oh my god I could go on. I'm just so exhausted and I often feel like I hate everything. Sure there are people that acknowledge these awful truths and try to fix them. But then obviously they get shot down or too fed up with all the bullshit. And I can't blame them, because sometimes I feel like one of them.
Goddamn I am trying. I am trying so hard to get good grades, enjoy myself, keep my social life going, and all that. But it is so unbelievably hard. I need to lie down, but nope I have two tests tomorrow. I like this shirt, but I have too much body fat to look good in it. I try to pay attention in classes, but nothing is taught very interestingly so nothing really sticks. My P.E. class is supposed to help me get fit, but nope I'm sore and flabby, and I can't do things the other people can do, so I feel terrible at sports. *sighs*
Idk no one's going to see this but I just needed to rant a little. I have a sore neck, a Latin test retake tomorrow, and double periods of two of my least favorite classes. It's a miracle I haven't failed anything yet. Well, trimester-wise anyway.
Hope you guys are doing lovely. Wish I didn't feel like crap all the time.
